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Sejak mula mengajar, saya selalu dapat pelajar lelaki. maklumlah subjek teknikal, makanya lelakilah yang paling sesuai.  Semasa di kluang, satu-satunya sekolah yang saya dapat mengajar mengikut optian, saya mendapat sekumpulan pelajar yang betul-betul samseng.  Mereka ini langsung tidak diberikan harapan, perokok tegar sejak kecil sampai bibir dan jari birat, pelajar-pelajar bermasalah dan samada gagal/ atau mendapat keputusan tercorot dalam pmr. Pendek kata, kalu tengok muka memang sebijik muka orang pecah rumah lah. Bersama nurul, bukan sedikit ujian dan dugaan yang kami hadapi untuk mendidik mereka, sampai hati sendiri kena jadik keras mcm tembok batu. Dan semalam, seseorang menegur saya di facebook. Mohd Farhan: salam cikgu  saya:----  Mohd Farhan: sihat..ckgu igt sy ag x?  saya:--- Mohd Farhan: btl2  hihi geng degil  ckgu kt oversea ag ke?  saya: mcmna interview polis? (dia pernah minta sy doakan ms nk pgi intvw)  Mohd Farha...

Terpegun dan terharu dengan sikap bertanggungjawab Cik S. Dia bukan sesiapa, hanya guru sekolah rendah biasa dan yang lebih membuatkan saya kagum lagi bertambah pelik dia berbangsa India dan sudah tentulah beragama Hindu. Tetapi sikapnya sangat berbeza dengan kebanyakan Melayu yang sah-sah beragama Islam dan memegang kuasa untuk melaksanakan dasar dan menguatkuasa undang-undang. Setelah mengesan, katanya dia telah memberitahu pihak sekolah dan beberapa guru agama lain di sekolah sama. Tidak cukup dengan itu dia juga menghubungi pejabat agama islam untuk memaklumkan tentang "penemuannya" yang dianggap serius.  Tetapi katanya juga dia merungut kerana tidak mendapat respon yang cepat daripada pejabat itu. Beliau seterusnya menghubungi pejabat-pejabat lain termasuklah Kementerian Pembangunan Keluarga, Wanita & Masyarakat. Sedar aduannya itu tidak mendapat respon yang diharapkan, dia lantas menelefon penulis akhbar dan juga pendakwah Ridhuan Tee Abdullah. Melihat kepada...

termenung lama memikirkan tajuk entry. lama, sangat lama sampai ambik masa 2 bulan.  Sampai satu ketika saya rasa bersalah dan perlu memikirkan semula kesan tulisan yang dipaparkan selama ini, samada mengundang kebaikan atau keburukan: fitnah, dengki, iri hati, rasa menyampah atau riak. mungkin niat kita baik, sekadar mahu berkongsi cerita, terlalu leka dan alpa sampai terkadang-kadang over atau keterlaluan, sampai menelanjangbulatkan diri sendiri.  jika sudah sampai ke tahap itu, sekurang-kurangnya sedikit perasaan riak terdetik di hati, na'uzubillahi min zalik. niat yang baik  tidak semestinya baik juga di pandangan orang. yea, rambut sama hitam, tapi hati lain2 kan. i contemplated whether to proceed or stop writing until finally i came up with the newest entry last week. ada masanya, tiba-tiba jiwa terasa kosong, macam tak de tempat nak meluahkan, and that is the only reason why i'm start to write again. after did some muhasabah, here i'm.  berharap sega...

Asyik melihat sukan olahraga yang rancak ditayangkan di TV, di sebalik wajah-wajah berkilat atlet berkulit hitam yang kelihatan gagah dan berkuasa, terselit wajah asia berkulit cerah dan bermata sepet. Dada bersungguh-sungguh menyokong. Ganbare! ganbare! ganbare nihon! Gembira bila atlet bermata sepet itu menang dan kecewa bila atlet negara yang disokongnya itu tertinggal di belakang. Sambil sekali sekala dia mengupdate perkembangan terkini pencapaian atlet-atlet jepun kepada saya. Patriotik sekali dia seolah-olah dia rakyat jepun. Pepatah ada menyebut, kita menjunjung langit di mana bumi kita pijak. Yelah tu agaknya. p/s: bak kata ari chan " mama orang mesia, adik orang jepun!" ngehehehe

melihat seorang kawan menghadapi kesukaran yang amat sangat untuk melahirkan zuriatnya baru-baru ini, membuatkan saya terkenang kembali peristiwa sama 7 tahun dulu. pengalaman pertama yang masih segar bugar dalam ingatan. sakitnya memang tidak tertahan, dan tak terungkap dengan perkataan.  hanya yang pernah mengalami dan merasainya tahu bagaimana kroniknya di saat kita bergadai nyawa melahirkan zuriat sendiri. pernah rasa berperang sendirian dalam labour room selama 8 jam. pernah rasa dipindahkan secara emergency ke hospital lain semasa rahim sudah pon terbuka 10cm. Driver ambulance memecut mengalahkan schumacher, bunyi hon bertali arus sedang 2 orang nurse memegang badan dan mententeramkan saya. pernah rasa pengalaman di"vacuum" bayi, dan akhirnya masih tak keluar juga pernah rasa pengalaman di"forcep"bayi, yang akhirnya bayi berjaya dikeluarkan tapi kepala dan mukanya bengkak dan lebam sana sini. pernah rasa pengalaman dijahit selama 2 jam sambil mendengar...

Lepas berakhirnya 1 syawal kelmarin, Dada pon tanya, "esok kita nak pegi mna pulak ma?" "Esok dada sekolah la mcm biasa, adik pon sekolah, papa pun sekolah" "Orang kat mesia raya sampai bila?" "ooohh kat sana raya sebulan, cuti sekolah sampai minggu depan" "eermmm...dada nak raya lama2 jugak, nak cuti lama2 jugak!!!!!!" p/s: mama pon sama sayang, sabarlah.....Nih raya sempoi kita yang terakhir insyAllah.... Salam lebaran, maaf zahir dan batin kepada semua.

Undoukai or sports day that held in many schools/kindergarten here is much much different compared to the one we have in Malaysia.  After 3 times joined the event, i'm truly speaking that the sports day here is more meaningful in a way: to develop student's mind and attitude, of teamwork, of determination and of whole school involvement. The event is as simple as any other event that took place.  Here i listed down the things that distinguish us from them: pelajar-pelajar dari pasukan rumah merah dan putih there is only 2 teams involve which is white team and red team there is no khemah provided for each team, students just sit on their own chair according to their team. there is no purposely shirt for sport, every student wear their usual track suit. only the cap that differentiate whether they are red team or white there is no prize for any event, so there is no prize given ceremony during the event except for the closing. involvement of all student, regard...

By her school sport day, she's been busy attending the training almost everyday during school time. Her skin became darker and she get tired easily every time she reached home. So came her mother saying this,  "kakak lari kuat-kuat yea, nanti mama n papa datang tgk kakak". But with an expression of hopeless she replied this, "kakak selalu lari last sekali la mama". Mother was so sad to hear that, but like every mom in the world who just want her kid to be happy, she tried to comfort or at least to uplifting her spirit by saying this,  " Takpe, ini cuma sukan jek bukan penting sangat pun. kakak lari lah suka-suka". That night mother told father about this and this was what father's respond, "Alah, kalau menang bukan dapat hadiah pon kan?" " dapatlah papa!" "Oh kalau macam tuh, kalau Dada kalah papa bagi hadiah!!!" Actually it was a part of conversation, and to be truth i was sad to look at her face when she ...

Orang kata, kalau kita mahu melihat orang lihatlah tandasnya. Orang juga kata, kalau kita mahu melihat negara lihatlah pemandu teksinya. Tandas kita macam mana? Tandas-tandas awam di stesen-stesen bas, taman bunga or stesen minyak? Selain bau hancing dan tidak sempurna tahap kebersihannya, dinding-dindingnya juga diconteng dengan luahan perkataan yang tidak sepatutnya.  Lebih teruk lagi tiada bekalan air dan sampah sarap juga terutama diaper anak-anak yang dibiar bertaburan.  Mungkin tidak semua, tandas-tandas awam di KLCC misalnya jauh lebih baik dan moden.  Disebabkan itu, ada tandas-tandas ini dikenakan bayaran kerana dikawalselia oleh pihak swasta yang mana pada hemat saya masih juga jauh jika mahu dibandingkan dengan kualiti tandas-tandas awam di sini. Di sini, di mana-mana ada tandas, percuma lagi. Semua kedai n tempat yang saya pergi ada tandas.  Tahap kebersihan tak payah cerita sebab saya sampaikan boleh bersembahyang di dalam tandas yang dikhaskan untuk o...

If you have had watched the above video, what is on you mind? yes, it is very catchy subject as the main role here is Siti Nurhaliza.  I live with her phenomena and she is just 1 year younger than me and of course she had affected me a lot ever since.   Although she is regarded as a malaysian's sweetheart, she also has so many peoples who hate her so much.  My friends always used to condemn and say many bad things about her even i think she was just doing alright and sometimes  i felt like they had really over the limits. regarding the above video, actually i was searching for another video when i found this video of her.   there is always something with siti indeed.  There are loads of comments written by the viewers and i went through the comments roughly and i smiled to myself.  i'm not going to discuss about the comments , because surely there are some pro and contrast but i just want to share one of the comments here. ...

when i went back to Malaysia recently, i was shocked of the goods price that was rising rapidly.  To buy a trolley full of groceries in Tesco i had to pay rm200++, where once i only need to pay around rm100 for the same quantity of goods before . my hand was like shaking when i paid for the stuff. Actually, we as consumer do play a role which led to the rises in prices.  As we know, rm1 is made up of 100 cent and it also can be mixed up with 5cent, 10cent and 50cent coin to makes RM1 or seringgit.  Bank Negara Malaysia has stopped produce 1 sen coin as the cost of producing it is high which is worth 20 cent per piece. So the smallest coin we have now is 5 cent, which means we already loss 4 cent here. But unfortunately, we Malaysian for what reason are prefer to use 10cent coin instead of 5cent coin in many transactions made. So, here we already loss another 9 cent. Before this 1cent coin is widely use in paying bills like electricity or water  ...

"If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive."-Mother Teresa Yesterday i was not feeling happy, my heart was gloomy and frustrated.  Today to make it worse i feel  so very down, disappointed,  deject, angry and upset of something else,  and it did affect me in everything i do.  i try to  calm down, taking some breath by going out somewhere by bicycle.  i then realize life is too short to be worried about something small, frivolous.  I must try to learn how to forgive and forget especially when it involve those my loved ones.  Not everything we did would satisfy and win other peoples' heart and i'm not perfect though. i may never forget but i can choose to forgive and move on.  InsyAllah with time flies the pain and hurt will fade away.  As one once said " forgiveness can be a wonderful act of healing yourself mentally, emotionally and spiritually" Sesungguhnya amarah dan benci membenci adalah sifat yang dimurkai Allah...

selalunya bila kakak dia mengaji, dia akan sibuk mengusung iqra'nya ke hulu ke hilir.  "adik nak ngaji jugak! adik nak ngaji jugak!" After sometimes and without proper class she is now manage to correctly read all the letter without assistance , but that is happened only for the first page of iqra' 1. Usually when we proceed to the next page, she will start to look around, unable to sit still and not giving her full attention anymore. dia akan baca huruf mana yang dia suka, tak ikut baris n susunan lagi dah.. mama: A - TA - BA ari: aa-tok bak! *laughing* ( atok bak ialah panggilan untuk atok belah ganu ) +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ mama: yang nih huruf TA la adik, sebab ada 2 titik kat atas ari: ooh, yang nih TA ker mama, sebab ada 2 tetek? *ooppsss!!* +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ mama: TA - BA - BA ari:  g ! *rolling on the floor* (dah macam cerita pendekar bujang lapok go to...

i used NOT to agree with the term before.  Rasa rimas pulak kalu hari-hari kita duk dengar ulang tayang benda yang sama, atau pun meluahkan benda yang sama.  Pada saya hanya 2 orang yang bercinta dan berkasih sayang itu sahaja yang perlu tahu hubungan hati  mereka.  Dari bahasa badan dan isyarat mata kita tahu perasaan satu sama lain, orang lain peduli apa kan.  Kata-kata keramat itu bagaikan tiada maknanya jika diucap setiap hari, setiap masa.  For me, love can best be expressed through eyes and behavior. Tapi en abang saya bukan begitu orangnya.  So, saya dipupuk dan diajar to express love by words since start.  So after a long years of marriage (9 years is a long enough to learn how to express love), i've accustomed to the habits. But in these recent years, when he become so busy with studies, i've to admit that i missed those things that i used to heard before.  it is not that he neglected me at all but being a full time house...

saya sebenarnya sangat suka dengan dishware, tableware, kitchenware  atau pon kata lainnya pinggan mangkuk.  Suka sangat-sangat sampaikan kalu pergi ke supermarket, kitchen and utensil section la yang saya duk merayau lama, walaupon x beli. kadang-kadang tak beli baju, kasut or handbag baru tak pe, yang penting nak beli pinggan.  Dulu masa kecik2, my mother used to hold a tupperware party kat rumah, kalau pon bukan kat rumah sendiri party tuh akan dibuat di rumah jiran2 lain yang jugak kawan-kawan mak secara bergilir-gilir.  So, memang sejak kecik saya dah didedahkan dengan minat yang sebegini and may be because of that i followed her footsteps until i grown.  Not only me my only sister and even my sister in law too get involved in this habits. Lebih teruk lagi, mak pernah guna tupperware dia untuk bagi ayam makan, selamba tak selamba nyer orang tua itu! Since i been here, nak la jugak membeli noritake barang seset dua. And menghabiskan tahun terakhir di ...

This is something that i'm waiting for  so long. At last the movie come to see the fan and if i'm not mistaken the sneak preview was held yesterday.  There is nothing to talk about the film, if you have had watched the series it wont take long to make you fall in love with it, make you excitedly waiting for its sequel.  how i wish i could come to see it in cinema like what we used to do in past. I wonder if the film could beat the high rating result made by the drama, just wait and see.  Like what nur amina said, "i'm not the one who cry, but it would make the audience cry", absolutely!.

actually during the chaos caused by the earthquake and then followed by the nuclear radiation leakage last march, we took a chances to travel to the southern area of Japan as a way to chill ourselves.  One of the place was Hiroshima which ironically is the first city in history to be destroyed  by nuclear weapon in world war II.  It has been 66 years since the first atomic bomb which dropped by the US Army, Hiroshima City now has developed dramatically and you will see no sign of suffering of the blast.  Except for the only building that was preserved as a memorial to the people who were killed in the atomic bombing tragedy in 1945. It is known as Atomic Bomb Dome.  The building was first named as Hiroshima Prefectural Commercial Exhibition, before the bomb detonated almost directly above the building. There were large numbers of people died from the effects of burn, radiation and other injuries compound by illness. if 66 years ago, they faced the thre...

it is not easy to make people laugh and get amused.  it has been a long time since i last watched comedian that can really make me laugh and at the same time enjoyed their performance.  i did enjoyed senario group at the early years of their appearance but eventually the jokes their make are so stereotypic, annoying and ridiculous.  but we can still watch for the best comedy series by charlie chaplin or Mr bean which are still fresh and relevant though they were produced years ago. I start watch this series of maharaja lawak recently while we were back in Malaysia.  I found that  there are a few contestants that really do a good job in making people laugh and they are really talented and got the skill right.  One of them is Jozan, consist of Johan and Zizan as a duo.   since then, we keep following the episodes, and last week's episode was the best of them i think so far.  The theme for the last week's episode is sile...

One fine morning, there was one little girl who whining her father for a bunch of flowers to be given to her teacher.  It was a teachers day and she want to give the flowers to her classroom teacher as everybody in the class were intended to do so.  However, father refused to buy because it was not their family's customs to celebrate any event by giving flowers and moreover a bunch of beautiful flowers of the florist at that time was a bit  costly .  But the girl insisted to have them and was about to cry when suddenly father came out with this one brilliant idea.  He took a cutter and  disappeared  out of the house.  He came back later with a bunch of bougainvillea in his hand. He then took a secondhand ribbon out of nowhere and tied it at the base of the stem.  It was perfectly done, he handed to his daughter, smiling.  the girl anyhow didn't feel satisfied because after all she just want the one that from the florist.   whe...

when i was in maktab long time ago, my lecturer had told us the story about this syndrome.  it is called second child syndrome and basically it refer to sibling with same sex in a row, for example the first and second daughter, the first and second son, or the third and fourth daughter and so on. Here is the hypothesis is all about: if you have 2 daughters in a row,  normally the second one would be much much extra in every way.  it is either lebih nakal, lebih garang, lebih keras hati, lebih daya tahan, lebih malas, lebih pandai, lebih suka merajuk, lebih manja or anything compared to the first one. i dont know how true the syndrome is but when i checked on the net, there is other version of  meaning of the syndrome.  Though it just an opinion based on incomplete evidence, i do feel the truth of it anyway.  If i look in my families, among our cousins the second child is more  mischievous, stubborn, daring and enthusiastic. The closest example is...

if you one of the user, you might know how true this story i'm about to tell.  I started use lenses during my second year of university as one of my friend made a move in using it. i bought it using my scholarship money at rm200 per pair and can be used for 2 years. since then, i'm being a hardcore user as i have this skin allergic which means my skin cannot bear contacting with any material in such a long time(gold is exceptional).  If it so, it will leave a mark or a rushes appear on the contact area which can lead to wound, in this case mark appeared between eyes and nose and area between eyes and ears.   One more thing is i feel my tudung condition become imperfect once i use the specs, beside i look older than my age. so within these long time of using it, there are many real, funny story to be shared here. my friend who first invent to this field has fall asleep once she put the lenses on.  it was inside bus and when she wakes up she rubbed her ey...

semalam dada type nih, name saye dada. umo saye 7tahun. rumah saye danchi. saye nak jadik dokter. ulasan saya: rasa terkejut, suka pon ada sebab usually she is more into nihonggo.   walaupon nak masuk 7 tahun, untuk kanak-kanak yang sepertinya: tinggal dan membesar di persekitaran yang menggunakan nihonggo saya rasa satu perkara yang bagus bila dia memilih untuk menulis dalam bahasa melayu walaupun kanak-kanak di malaysia yang seusianya dah more advance kan. ejaan untuk perkataan digunakan sangatlah pasar, saye>>>saya, dokter>>>doktor, he3 rosak bahasa ibunda, for sure amik masa nak tuning balik nih may be dia terpengaruh dengan bahasa harian yang kami gunakan or dengan bahasa chatting yang mama dia selalu guna. umo>>>umur, jadik>>jadi. Tapi kami notice satu perkara iaitu Ari chan kalu balik malaysia, vocabularynya makin bertambah dan bahasa melayunya bertambah baik.  Rasanya, tak susah nak gilap balik kemahiran berbahasa nih once dah ...

have you ever seen this kind of machine? Actually it is a vending machine for selling baby diaper.  I was very attracted to it when i was first time saw.  But you could see the machine everywhere here, in fact there is other machine that sell bun, cigarette, ice cream beside selling drinks which commonly we have in Malaysia. These vending machines are placed everywhere and they are in good condition and well maintain. I was away for sometime, and may be i missed something but i guess they are a step ahead in technology and a very highly civilized society.

If you have had watched the drama, you may know why i love it so much.  It is full of messages, sacrifice and not just an ordinary love story.  Each time i watched or read story about the same topic, i will get touched so easily and sometimes i cry by myself.  Is it mean that anything regarding it is so related to me that much? For those who know me outside, you might know how i finally get involved in it.  How hardly i tried to avoided to be it at first and how prejudice i was on it at that time.  But Allah really knows the best for me and everything seems to be arranged beautifully.  How i get retrenched from my previous company and at the same time the offer came just nice on time. But the most unforgettable thing is how cruel i was to let my fiancé settled everything regarding the application and i seem like one irresponsible person.  When i need to go to interview, i was unprepared at all, in fact i was not showing any interest in th...

as everybody knows, sakura or cherry flower is synonymous with Japan and it is regarded as a national flower here. So, the arrival of cherry blossom season is something that is awaited for many Japanese. It also indicate the beginning of the new fiscal year in Japan's calender. However the flower is so fragile and have a very short life span. So, they pay close attention to the forecast and turn out in large number in park, shrine or temple with families or friends to hold the flower viewing party or they called it hanami. picture from google.com Normally they would have some food and drinks, sitting on the mat under the sakura tree and chatting together while enjoying the beauty of the flowers. as far as i concerned Japanese people appreciate the nature so much that they wouldn't miss every single bit of it which comes only once a year. This scenario is something that not exist in Malaysia, furthermore with the hot and humid weather all year round, we can see any flowers...

it has been a year and now comes the time to say goodbye.  I joined the class purposely to fulfill my leisure time and now the time has become less since dada enter the primary school.  She will be at home around 3 and i want to be there to welcome her home. I gained a lots of knowledge of water color drawing from the class and surely expect to apply and continue drawing when i have time.  For me, drawing is some kind of mind therapy and i put myself into it when i draw and it really makes me feel free and light.  Actually old folks here love to attend these kind of class as a hobby and one of their way of socializing. There is variety of classes including calligraphic, dancing, language, flower arrangement, music, sewing, aerobic and knitting. That is why i'm the youngest in the class. if you have followed this blog over the last one year, you may recognize this picture below. this is my very first drawing of the class and i named it otte dori a...

i dont want to be fat. it is because it will make me feel lack of confident in something i do and the most important reason is i want to be fit to run the responsibility as a mother.  while we went back to Malaysia recently, i saw my mother, grandmother and almost my family members who are women are big in size and i then realize that i will inherit the gene if and only if i  neglect the exercise and not keeping the proper diet. my family tend to have dinner late at night which is after isyak or may be later than that. After dinner they will go straight to bed.  Thus as we know food that we eat needs several hours to be digested and the food that not digested properly will assemble into fat.  Worse come to worst many malaysian like to have heavy supper at mamak stall while watching the football match on the wide screen provided.  This is really not a healthy eating pattern. While we in Terengganu for about a week, we had this nasi dagang,...

it has been a while since my last post and i dont even know how to start again.  Errmm let talk about shingles or herpes zoster.  Have you ever heard about the disease?  Actually my eldest daughter is now being infected by this disease and for those who still clueless about it, shingles is caused by the reactivation of the dormant virus in the nerves of people who have previously had chickenpox or whose immunity has weakened.  A typical rash or small red blisters, which are very itchy and painful may appear on the chest or face.  In my daughter's case, the rash appear on the back.   In Malay, we called it "kayap" but i really dont like the word cause it sound like another one skin disease which is "kurap". Dada is given one week leave and next week is a golden week here(the whole week is holiday), which means she will be at home for 2 consecutive weeks! So, i have to plan activities to do with her so that she and me will not going crazy h...

my very own, humble, yet a special  project dedicated to my sweetheart. The very tough one, took almost 5 weeks to be completed, and i think the eyes is the most important part to make the subject at least similar to Nurkhaleeda.  And i know mine is far from perfect, but my heart is always blooming each time i'm working on it as if i see my own princess in front me. jishin/earthquakes updates: Alhamdulillah, kami sekeluarga selamat.  Diharap kawan-kawan lain di Jepun juga di dalam lindunganNya especially Kamalia, Ita, Umie dan Hanis, insyAllah.. 

sejak hari pertama menjejakkan kaki di sini, benda nih dah bermain-main kat kepala dan setiap kali itu jugaklah saya cuba mengelak untuk bercakap atau berfikir tentangnya. Sehinggalah minggu lepas, benda nih terjadi lagi kepada seorang kawan di sini. Saya akhirnya berfikir secara serius, apa pendirian saya kalau ianya terjadi kepada diri sendiri?? Saya pun bertanyalah kepada hb, jika terjadi kematian di kalangan ahli keluarga terdekat, macamana?? Dia pun sebenarnya mengelak untuk berfikir benda yang sama.  Saya katakan pada dia, bukan mahu mendoakan yang tidak2 kerana ajal dan maut tuhan yang tentukan tetapi sekurang-kurangnya kita sudah bersedia. Kata dia, tak payah balik pun tak pe sebab kalau balik pun memang tak sempat nak jumpa.  Tetapi dia tidaklah menghalang kalau saya ingin balik jika sekiranya melibatkan keluarga di sebelah saya. Memang takkan sempat jumpa, yang pergi tetap pergi dan kita seharusnya berdoa untuk roh arwah.  Tetapi saya mahu bersama...